A restless spirit who can't reach his goal, can't find a home until I've found my soul. - The Kinks, Still Searching

Downtown Jacksonville could be a really fun place. The sad thing is....it's dead there. Everyone leaves Friday after work to party outside the city. The landing exists and I'll bet when they first opened it, it was something special.....now.....not much. They have events there and I hear then it gets packed, but other than that, nothing. It's a beautiful area.

I randomly read up on it on Urban Jacksonville's blog. I would love to get more involved and connected to the city. I love downtowns that have older looks to them and are renovated to be hopping areas. I think that's why I love fort worth. Well, there is a co-op bike shop in towntown, Zombie Bikes. I have their link on the right. I've been thinking of going to check them out and maybe learning about biking and building bikes. I have a few friends that are into that and I know Jim and Kristi are very involved in their bike community in the Dallas area. It seems that bikers really want to conserve the city's charm and uniqueness and keep things fresh. I'll have to check them out in the new year.

I'm kind of disappointed in myself. I have this hard time with thinking of all these things I want to be involved in, but because I can't decide, I just don't do anything I plan on! Well, that's going to change in 2010! It's a downfall of being a gemini.
"They are changeable and sometimes noncommittal. In this way, Gemini exemplifies the Mutable Quality assigned to it. They are adaptable and able to tackle multiple tasks simultaneously, and they know how to reason with people, but they may lack follow-through or seem ungrateful. Within the Zodiac, Gemini is opposite Sagittarius, the Sign of Philosophy. While Sagittarius tends to have one major interest that is studied deeply, Gemini people tend to have many different interests they study in less detail. They love to learn, and are analytical and versatile, but their study may be more superficial than in-depth."

That's where I falter. I know a little bit about a lot of things. In a way, it's good. I can carry on conversations with many different types of people. I don't become a master at anything. I get interested. Learn about it and then move on. If I could focus my energy, that would be great.

Okay, I'm going to go play my star wars wii game. :)

Its all in the choices that you have to make, I got to tell you, you better make them great. - INXS, Faith In Each Other

I feel like I am having to play my mom... "Candi, you have to pick two". She had to say that when I was young and wanted to be in gymnastics, soccer, softball, swim team all at once. I can't help it. I want to do it all! I'm a gemini. :)

These are the things I'm having to choose from now: scuba, flying, guitar, rugby, learning spanish, golf... I want to do everything. Starting in January I'm going to choose two. I really want to learn how to fly, but it's a lot of money and I'm afraid I won't do much of it after I got my license. I could go on to instruct and that way keep up my hours, but I don't know. Scuba would be fun because I have more friends I could go with and there is a diving club on base that I could join and go on weekend trips every now and then. Both of those cost a bunch. Guitar lessons would be pretty easy....especially if I can convince my dad to give me his old guitar. ;) eh eh? daddy? haha. He never plays it. I think the last time he ever took it out of the case was when I was about 5 and I thought it was a game to put the pick inside the guitar. haha. He didn't think that was funny. Maybe that's why he won't give it to me.

Anywho, I just have too many interests and want to do too many things, but they all cost. Maybe scuba and guitar, then flying. Urg. I don't know. I can't decide! I don't want to keep putting off flying because I know I just won't ever do it if I keep moving it back. I will do it though! Some point I will!

Candi. You have to choose two.

To wake up with a smile without a doubt, to burst grin giggle bliss skip jump sing and shout. Let's get happy. - The Cure, Doing The Unstuck

Man, I'm happy. Just naturally, spiritually, energetically happy.

-Christy and I booked our cruise for April!

Port Canaveral, Florida



19-Apr Cruising



20-Apr Labadee, Haiti



21-Apr Ocho Rios, Jamaica



22-Apr George Town, Grand Cayman



23-Apr Cruising



25-Apr Port Canaveral, Florida

I've never been on a cruise and neither has my sis, so we're thrilled. A week away from everything! Not only that....everything is brought to US! They even have a rock climbing wall on the ship. It's perfect for someone so stir crazy. I'll get spoiled though and wish that the navy's ships had rock climbing walls. :)


-Meeting more friends here in Jax.
Last night we had the nurses holiday party and I met a few other J.O.'s and I'm really excited about that! The thing that makes me pleased with myself is that when I moved to DC and wanted to meet people I just felt more alone and depressed. Now that I've been on my own a while, alone time is great and I just tell myself to calm down and relax, because friends will come. I just gotta take the time to get out in different avenues in the city and spread my wings.

I'm trying out a new church tomorrow. I've found some I'm interested in, but they either don't have a large young adult group, or whatever. We'll see how this one is.

-Christmastime!
Man, I love this time of year! Even though it's not snowing (everywhere except Florida apparently haha) and it's not super cold, you can still get in the spirit. Right now, I'm laying on the couch with my little Christmas tree lit, Christmas music going, and my holiday scented candles filling my apt with an amazing aroma.

-My job
I can't explain enough how much happier I am here in the ICU at Jax than in the APU at NNMC. I love the people I work with and they're so knowledgeable. I'm learning a lot so far...it's been a long time since I've done some really good nursing. The patient load is so low that I have time to really take good care of my patients. They're also going to start redoing our ICU next summer and apparently wanting to expand it to a real ICU (not just the open bay 6 bed unit we have now. hehe).

-The Navy
Nuff said. I'm a dork. I love the Navy. So happy to be in a Navy town.

-Going to start flight school soon
Just gotta order my ground school online stuff. I'm kinda waiting to get all my Christmas shopping done first. Hopefully, I'll start getting up in a plane by March or so.



I watch the news channels and I see how difficult it is for so many others. I've looked at hands on jax, which is a volunteer organization. I need to go up there in person and start volunteering around town. I just feel so lucky that all of these difficult things that are happening to others aren't happening to me. God has been amazing and He's continually blessing me. I just have to pass it on to others.

This ain't no rag it's a flag ~Charlie Daniels Band

There are no words. I am so upset about this that I can't write any more.

http://www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/meast/11/25/navy.seals.falluja/index.html

Someone can kill Americans, set their bodies on fire, drag them through the streets and hang them for the world to see......and the mastermind behind it gets punched in the face and now US Navy Seals are on trial. Wow.

WAKE UP AMERICA! How would everyone like to see their children's dead bodies set on fire and dragged through the street??? You wouldn't punch the guy in the face? Nope. We'll just let him go free. It's okay. Terrorists are our friends, right? We need to make sure they have better rights than our own Navy Seals.

Wow.

I'm just about to cry. This breaks my heart America.



These lyrics explain it all.

This ain't no rag it's a flag
And we don't wear it on our heads
It's a symbol of the land where the good guys live
Are you listening to what I said
You're a coward and a fool
And you broke all of the rules
And you wounded our American pride

And now we're coming with a gun
And we know you're gonna run
But you can't find no place to hide
We're gonna hunt you down like a mad dog hound
Make you pay for the lives you stole
We're all through talking and a messing around
And now it's time to rock and roll

These colors don't run and we're speaking as one
When we say united we stand
When you mess with one, you mess with us all
Every boy, girl, woman and man
You've been acting mighty rash
And talking that trash
Let me give you some advice
You can crawl back in your hole
Like a dirty little mole

But now you're gonna pay the price
You might of shot us in the back
Now you have to face the fact
That the big boys' in the game
And the lightning's been flashing
And the thunder's been crashing
And now it's getting ready to rain

This is the United States of America
The land of the brave and the free
We believe in God and we believe in justice
We believe in liberty
You've been pulling our chain
We should've done something 'bout you a long time ago
But now the flag's flying high and the fur's gonna fly
And soon the whole world's gonna know

This ain't no rag, it's a flag
Old Glory red, white and blue
The stars and the stripes when it comes to a fight
We can do what we have to do
Our people stand proud
The American crowd is faithful, loyal and tough
We're good as the best and better than the rest
And you're gonna find out soon enough
When you look up in the sky
And you see the eagle fly
You better know he's a heading your way
Cause this ain't no rag it's a flag
And it stands for the USA
USA
USA
USA

This is the United States of America
The land of the brave and the free
We believe in God and we believe in justice
We believe in liberty
You've been pulling our chain
We should've done something 'bout you a long time ago
But now the flag's flying high and the fur's gonna fly
And soon the whole world's gonna know
~Charlie Daniels Band

The horizon has been defeated by the pirates of the new age. - Jack Johnson, The Horizon Has Been Defeated

....not in this sense though. You all remember the ship that was attacked and held hostage by pirates earlier? Ya, well they got attacked again......but shot back! booya! I love it.

http://www.marinelog.com/DOCS/NEWSMMIX/2009nov00180.html

Only two more shifts and then my sister comes into town! I don't hate work though! yay!

Transparent? Haha.

So, there are jobs being saved in non existant congressional sections all over the us. Interesting. Millions of dollars going to what?? Here's one example:

http://watchdog.org/2009/11/16/administration-stimulus-creates-jobs-in-non-existant-congressional-districts/

But, it's allll over. Not just New Mexico. I'm so glad I got out of dc alive. That city is full of absolute evil people. Wow.

Alrighty, gotta get in to work!

There's no exit in any direction, except the one that you can't see with your eyes. - Bob Dylan, Series Of Dreams

I was just thinking today about how hard it is to let go and trust something. We talked about this in church today. it is very hard for us to trust. Other people, God, etc. I kind of relate it to my GPS. In dc, I knew a certain way to get to the airport through downtown along the Potomac. Well, one night I left to go pick my dad up. Now, I had my GPS set up, but I knew which way i wanted to go. It kept instructing me to bypass the interstate and go through Georgetown! Heck no. All those traffic lights? No way. Even though my GPS has a traffic thing on it to warn me of slow traffic and it kept redirecting me, I didn't listen. I kept on my track I knew. it was at night, dark and rainy. I wanted to go the way I knew! Well, I got on the interstate and dealt with traffic and then went down Cabin John Parkway until we all of a sudden came to a complete stop and there was a line of cars! Well, little did I know, that this road was blocked from traffic into the city during certain hours. I had taken it before, but it wasn't in the evening rush hour. SOO, I was going to have to figure out a way around. Well, when I got up to being second in line to go around the detour, some cops drove through and opened up the road. Hallelujah! I had some other obstacles and my dad had to wait a little at the airport, but it taught me a lesson. Just listen to the GPS. You bought it for a reason and it can see everywhere.

The same is true with God. he could keep telling me over and over to go a certain way and he would keep saying "recalculating" and show me other options to get where He wanted me to go. I would continue to be stubborn and go my way into a big ole mess. He probably wishes some time that he had a whale that could swallow me up and take me to where He wanted me to go. I'm kinda glad that hasn't had to happen!

God's taken good care of me. I really think that this is where He wants me. At least, I'll just keep doing this until some other door opens up that He wants me to take.

I am so happy about my move to Florida. I've been so stress free after moving here! The sun shines all the time. People are so friendly. The hospital is much slower and I don't dread going to work. I had one patient the other day and got to sit in on rounds with the docs and take the whole day to dedicate to really understand what was going on with this patient. If I had been on my med/surg floor, I would have had her with her complicated medical issues and 5 other patients. I don't know how I used to do it.
I think I may start to like Florida a little more than Texas......no wait. I still love Texas with my heart and soul, but this place ain't much worse! I def don't miss home as much. It already feels like home here. Now, to just get mom and dad to move here. hehe. :)

Right. So, anyways. Trust God. He knows what He's doing.

Proverbs 3:5 & 6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Psalm 32:8 - I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.

All my single ladies!

Just gonna complain for a minute. I was going through and reading up on friends blogs and I noticed a few of them had these cute little "tickers" and thought...well, I don't have a kid and I'm not married, but I can count how long I've been an officer in the Navy! SOOOO, I go to their website http://lilypie.com/ and my options are "pregnancy", "baby, kids and birthday", "trying to conceive", "adoption", "breastfeeding" (OK! No clue why you would ever want a ticker for that...but some people just feel like telling the world every minute of their life), "memorial", "anniversary", "wedding", "vacation", "pets".

LAME! No single girl tickers? What about "last glass of wine" ticker or "stayed out all night because I didn't have anyone to answer to" ticker orrrrr "I spend my money the way I want because it's MY money I earned to play with" ticker....


Seriously? A "breastfeeding" ticker? Some people really need a life.....


Then, I go to try and find a "military blinkie" at this site http://www.free-blinkies.com/blinkies/Military/ and they're all like "I lovvvveee my soldier" and "Airborne's Girlfriend" and my favorite "Army wives do it with hooah" (hahahaha). Seriously. No blinkies like "I kick a** because I'm a sailor" or "Ya, I'm a woman, but I still serve" or "No, my boyfriend/husband/fiance isn't military, I am!"?

Lame.

I'll put my toes in the water. Toes in the sand. Not a worry in the world, a cold beer in my hand. Life is good today. ~Toes by Zac Brown Band

Ah. An update. Well, here is goes.

Dad flew up. Movers came. Checked out of Bethesda. Got in the car and headed south! I wanted to stop in Wilmington, N.C. to take some pictures were they shot scenes in Dawson's creek. I'll pause for you to laugh. Anywho, I decided to leave earlier out of DC, so we got there in the middle of the night. Dad drove back and forth through Wilmington so I could sleep and then we were going to take pictures when the sun came up. I got inpatient, took some in the middle of the night (but didn't realize I didn't have a card in my camera and my transfer cord is ruined...so they're stuck on my camera). Then, we headed on and had breakfast in Charleston, S.C. I was so ready to get to Florida. By the time we hit the border of the state, the roads and sky opened up for us!

I checked into the command and went on house hunting leave. I'm now in an apartment in southside. Convenient to everything! I can't believe how fast I can get around on the freeway here! I forgot my car could go fast. I was always stuck in traffic in dc and don't ever think I got over 50 on the freeway. I'm bound to get a ticket soon. I can't control myself.

I got my stuff a week later than I was expecting it because the driver had a family emergency. Poo. I did get my things though and in a matter of just a few days, have already unpacked everything and it almost looks like a complete home.

I have a large blank red wall in my living room and one large blank wall in my bedroom that I'm wanting to fill, but I don't know what with. I don't want everything to look cluttered though. Please send any thoughts my way!

I also have an official "office"! I have a desktop computer again, too. I forgot how much I liked having one of those. I'm going to get a futon for my office, but I can't make up my mind what color. Ahhh.

Anywho, there is plenty of room here and lots of places for people to sleep (esp once I get my futon) so everyone must come visit! You'll love it. I'll post some pictures and try to get a video posted of me walking through the apt. We'll see if that works....

If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear. Sometimes, I get so tense, but I can't speed up the time. -Patience by Guns N' Roses

Time just seems to be dragging. Just to torture me. Every day, my patients ask when I'll be PCSing or how long I've been here and where I'll be going. I talk about Jax all the time. Even Twilight is rubbing it in my face. Reading about how Bella's mom loves Jacksonville. I'm pretty much ready as much as I can be at this point. I will need to follow up with the housing dept and see what day they will come and move me. I'm so glad I don't have to worry about packing and actually moving. I just oversee the movers and then enjoy the day driving down with my dad.

I'm glad I already have my apartment set up. It's quiet on a small pond/lake and it's so quiet! I love it. I'm so ready to get away from all the noise.

I've also been having horrible headaches. I've never had headaches....they won't stop though.

This past Saturday I went to Busch Gardens with a few of my small group girls. Sunday, I ran the Navy 5 miler down by the Pentagon with Jessica. We got to a long stretch uphill and while I wanted to stop and walk, I looked to my right and realized I was looking at hundreds of tombstones in Arlington National Cemetery. I can't run a 5 mile run and yet these men and women lost their lives probably running up hills with body armor and being shot at. It really makes you push through and realize how lame your complaint is about the pain. We ended up making a time of 49.26. I'm proud of that! I normally run about a 12 min mile...just a slow trot. We made it right under a 10 min mile! That, and also going up hills. I never run hills. I need to work on that. Jess and I are now looking to run the Breast Cancer 1/2 marathon in Jacksonville in February. Gotta get my butt in shape. It's a step though. Only 5 months since I had my fasciotomies and it was my first run. God was there pushing me on.

Answers to prayer. One of the civilian nurses in the APU came up to me last week to ask about the hospitals in Lubbock, Texas. She had a friend who's son is going to Texas Tech and had his appendix burst and had to return to the hospital 4 different time for complications. The most recent one she was talking to me about was that he was now having fluid around his small and large intestine and it was looking like he was developing a small bowel obstruction and possible ileus. They were going to take him in to surgery that day and she asked me to lift it up in prayer. I had some time before my shift, so I went into our locker room and sat down and prayed about it. Normally, people say they will pray for someone, but get busy and never get around to it. Well, I wanted to make the time and actually do what I was saying I'd do. I prayed that they would get in there and that whatever they thought the problem was, that it wouldn't be there and they'd be able to let him heal without anything invasive in the surgery. The next day, I checked with her to see how it went. Amazingly, the guy got into preop and suddenly had bowel sounds return and it seemed like whatever had been the problem had already cleared up before they even had to sedate him. They didn't have a need for the surgery anymore! God is amazing. Things like that just make you stop and smile because you know His hand was involved.

That's my short update for now. I'm just in a holding period. I've already checked out mentally from Bethesda. I need to get out of here.

Jacksonville trip

That's downtown across the water. There is water everywhere! I love it. Much more navy-esque.

Not going back to dc...even just for a month!

Today, the beach!

Ohiopyle camping and white water trip!

Tanya planned a trip to ohiopyle, pa with phil, her aunt and husband and me. I've been so busy that it's been hard to be excited about it just because I feel like I have too much to do. It made it hard to relax at times, but I needed the break.

We met an awesome couple who was on our raft for our white water trip. It was a great day! We lost one woman in some rough rapids, but we were the only boat that got our person right back in the boat. We were all military, so we bonded quickly. It's funny how that is. We're all a big family. It's just what I wanted when I joined!

I'm glad I got up there since I didn't get home to go camping. Plus, here you camp and it's not 100 degrees! We get cold at night and the campfire is perfect. Good company, good smores, good food...good weekend.

In less than two weeks I'll be in jacksonville for labor day!

I'm dreading going back to work. I'm done with bethesda...

A few more

Brooks and Dunn and PAT GREEN

These aren't the best pictures in the world...but we couldn't take cameras in so I had to use my phone.

Oh, and this was on an army base and there were enlisted army and marines everywhere. Well, of course a few came up to talk to us and then eventually we get around to explaining to them that we don't have an MOS because we're officers. Then, you get the "oh. You're a 'ma'am'" look! Urg.

Changes aren't permanent, but change is. - Rush, Tom Sawyer

Gotta update several things....it's been a while.

First, I saw this article on CNN and was so excited!
http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/07/27/starr.extraordinary/index.html

It describes two different wounded warriors that had polar opposite changes in their lives. The first one they talk about is Andrew Kinard (http://www.goupstate.com/article/99999999/INDEPTH/516552862/). When I first got to Bethesda and I was fresh out of nursing school and on my rotation in the ICU, I shadowed the nurse taking care of Andrew. It was def a wake up call. He was a 2LT in the Marine Corps and had graduated from the Naval Academy. Only weeks into his first deployment, he stepped on a roadside bomb and ended up losing about everything from his hips down. I walked in the room to a young guy, who was also my age, with a trach, unable to talk and nothing from the hips down. He was able to read lips really well and had an alphabet board so he could spell out things. Despite the fact that he could not talk, he was a flirt. Bright red hair and a wink. I remember thinking he was very cute and one day his nurse and I walked in and told him we were going to do a "head to toe" assessment and he spelled out that he didn't have toes and smiled. Very cute. I was only there a few days, but I was there the day the Commandant of the Marine Corps gave him his purple heart. We also hung Christmas lights and stockings in his room. I won't forget those few days. Now, I'm sure he'd never know who I was. He spent a lot more time on 5E, the surgical floor and would know those nurses, but still. It meant a lot for me to be there for a few days.

Anywho, he's very smart and in this article it talks about how he was accepted to Harvard's Law School. He can do anything he puts his mind to and is an inspiration to everyone around the world.


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Reconciliation. One important virtue that God wants us to understand is how to forgive and how to ask forgiveness. If you are a believer in God and try and walk with Him, you will def understand forgiveness. It's the whole reason He sent Jesus for us. No matter what was done, when it was done or how we lived our lives, God will always accept a honest heart who comes before him to seek reconciliation. In addition to that, He wants us to seek reconciliation with other people who we have hurt.

It's amazing the power of a clear heart and conscious after a long time of guilt. I may not have gotten the response I was expecting, but in a way, it was just what I needed. I didn't cry or feel sorry for myself. I didn't go to sleep wishing someone was with me or wake up feeling alone. It was actually the opposite. I felt victorious. God didn't care about his response. He only cared about how I handled the situation and it pleased him. In the end, the person's harsh response and bitter heart will only hurt him in the long run. I'm free to be a confident (still growing) woman of God.

I feel like my life is on a whole new path. Patients who are upset have been so understanding when their surgery is postponed for hours, surgeons have actually said "thank you" and I am probably the happiest I've been in a long time. It's that "Brady Bunch" kinda look where the person is skipping down the road smiling and talking to everyone. Ya, I've been like that so much that I think it's making people sick at work. haha.

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I never talked about my sister's visit. It was so great. We didn't have a whole lot planned. A lot of the time it was just us hanging out on my patio or watching movies. She did surprise me with a segway tour of DC (the absolute best way to do it!) and we ate lunch on the Potomac and shopped in Georgetown.


The first day didn't start off so great. It was rush hour and we had to switch trains at Chinatown (one of the busiest stations). I had my sister's suitcase so she wouldn't have to worry about it. The train was sooo packed and the platform so much that you couldn't move. People were just pushing and running, etc. i got on the train and heard the doors closing and someone jumped in front of my sis before she could get on and the doors closed. I will never forget looking at my sister's face through the metro doors while she was stuck on the platform and I was about to drive away. I kept yelling at her to "stay there!!!' through the doors. I knew I could get back to her, but she couldn't find me if we separated. Especially because you can't get cell reception down there. Long story, but I got back to the station and found her and we eventually got home. It made for an interesting beginning to the visit.



Later that night we were attacked by a cicada. It was awful. I lose control when attacked by those or roaches.....it ended with a couple bruises and a tear in my sliding screen door. (From my broom) Eventually, we conquered and killed him with some bathroom cleaner. :) Why is it every time she comes to visit horrible bugs attack us??


So, that's my long, overdue update. Until next time.

For every mistake we must surely be learning, still my guitar gently weeps. - The Beatles, While My Guitar Gently Weeps

Air Force probes surgery at base; Airman loses legs after gallbladder operation

A 20-year-old airman was in critical condition at University of California Davis Medical Center on Monday, after losing both legs in what his family described as complications of routine gallbladder surgery.

By Carrie Peyton Dahlberg

McClatchy Newspapers

SACRAMENTO, Calif. — A 20-year-old airman was in critical condition at University of California Davis Medical Center on Monday, after losing both legs in what his family described as complications of routine gallbladder surgery.

Neither the medical center nor Travis Air Force Base, where Airman 1st Class Colton Read underwent surgery this month, would comment on specifics of his case.

Travis said only that a "serious medical incident" occurred at its David Grant Medical Center on July 9 and is being investigated by the base, a national hospital accrediting commission and the U.S. Surgeon General.

Read, who was stationed at Beale Air Force Base east of Marysville, Calif., was supposed to get his gallbladder removed laparoscopically at the Travis hospital, said his wife, Jessica Read.

Instead, a device being threaded into his belly nicked or punctured the aorta, a large artery that carries blood from the heart throughout the body, she said.

Surgeons opened his abdomen and were able to repair the breach well enough to save his life, but in the process or afterward, something apparently disrupted the blood supply to his legs.

Jessica Read said she was told the aorta was sewn together incompletely and began leaking, and her husband was flown to UC Davis Medical Center late that afternoon for more specialized vascular surgery.

Her uncle, Dr. Michael Hines, a Texas surgeon, said he was told by the UC Davis surgeon who operated on Colton Read that two branching vessels from the aorta that carry blood to the legs were clotted and closed.

When the surgeon restored the blood supply to those iliac vessels, the legs were so badly swollen and damaged that blood circulated only down to the knees, leaving dead tissue below, Hines said.

Colton Read has undergone surgeries that removed first the lower-right leg, then the lower-left and more of the right, his wife said. Hines said he had "a hard time understanding how he ended up with no legs ... how you leave an operation without assuring that there is blood flow."

For her part, Jessica Read anguishes over the nearly nine hours, by her count, that passed from the initial surgical error until her husband was flown to Sacramento. She wonders if his legs could have been saved had he been moved more quickly.

"They were wasting time doing a sonogram, doing an angiogram, wasting so much time," she said.

When she arrived at UC Davis Medical Center, the surgeon there told her there was "a very real chance" her husband would not survive.

Since then, he has been doing a little better each day, gradually regaining kidney function and slipping in and out of consciousness, she said.

He knows he has lost his legs, but "I don't know how much of it sticks."

I can't believe this story. How awful. I read another one that mentioned another surgeon saying it's not the mistake that makes a surgeon, but what he does after that mistake. Very true in this case. What I think is even more awful that you don't see here are the comments at the bottom of the article. People started slamming military doctors saying they can't "hack" it in the civilian sectors. HA. I'm sorry.....but if you saw some of the men and women coming back from Iraq and Afghanistan and then what the doctors did to rebuild their face or give them legs again, you might be thinking something different. They do some things that civilians could NEVER think of. They have to perform medicine in situations that civilians would never want to be in. Mortars going off outside the hospital, people coming in after being out in the field for who knows how long, your treasured equipment isn't right next door when your trauma comes in with double amputeed legs. I'm just in awe of what our military doctors are doing and while this case shocked me and I can't EVEN imagine what it would be like to be the patient or his family....I can't stand for people generalizing and saying that all the military doctors are "POS"es as one comment put it.

here's the link if you would like to make a comment back: http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/politics/2009513180_surgery22.html

Freedom scares you because it means responsibility. - Dead Kennedys, Stars And Stripes Of Corruption

Wow. I'm going to sound like my dad here...but what is going on with people in this country???

What happened to what really founded this country. People that were willing to do anything to be on their own and have control over their own lives. They were tired of a monarchy that told them what to do. Freedom was given to American citizens and in turn, we all were responsible for ourselves. Now, no one wants to be responsible, we want the government to do everything and in turn, we give up our freedom. The more control we give the government (well, hell. They claim the control anyway...even if we protest), the less we get to choose for ourselves.

I don't want my family members to have worry about how long it will take to see a doctor and if they can have the procedure or if the government won't approve it....no. I don't like that at all. And not only that, but we'll be paying out the wazoo for this....and our children and their children....

And, HELLOOOOO. I wasn't a huge fan of Bush or anything, but everyone was ALL over him for his spending and Obama has him beat in the first few months! I'm not quite sure how that worked. All the people that complained about Bush are now rooting for the spending by Obama. I'm puzzled.

You want free health care? Join the military. Give something back to the government. Don't just put your hand out, expect everything to be given to you and then just spit in its face.

Now, I do believe that our current health care system does need to be looked at and changed, but I'm not so sure about what's being thought of right now.

Before anyone thinks that I'm too this or too that or too right or too left....I'm more less a libertarian. That's the closest I can claim to be. I believe we should all take care of ourselves. There are too many opportunities these days to sit back and say they can't improve their situation. I know plenty of men and women that had no way out and were in a dead end situation and joined the military. Through that, they have gone from living dirt poor to being the first in their family to get a college degree and be able to afford food for their family.

There are no excuses.

My morning song. Just what I needed.

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

-By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North

He's going the distance. -Cake

So, today wasn't the best running experience I've had, but there is something I want to share. A friend at work showed me runningahead.com. It's a way to keep your running training in a log and will help you map out your runs, etc. I'm going to try and keep it up to speed for some of you to follow (and for my own tracking).

I think I'm getting a chest cold and I had a hard time taking deep breaths today, so I only did 2 miles. I am going to add the link to my blog as well. Help encourage me to get running and increase the amount! Thanks!

http://www.runningahead.com/logs/16c720e1d12e463189236291c5eb1595/profile

I can remember the 4th of July, running through the backwoods bare. - Creedence Clearwater Revival, Born On The Bayou

My last 4th of July in the Nation's Capital (while living here, at least). It was a great day. Ali and I headed all over the dc area just bumming around and then we eventually all met up for the concert and fireworks. I have no idea how we managed to find everyone, but we did and it was awesome! Then, walked to Gordon Bierch while everyone ran to the metro. Had good food and then got really sleepy and headed back home.

And, oh yes. I got called before the fireworks to let me know I had to go into work this morning to discharge a patient that was admitted for an emergency surgery and was staying overnight. Fun times. Right. At least I got to see the show!

I've got such good friends up here. I'm really going to miss them.

It is such a cool feeling to celebrate Independence Day here in Washington, DC. :)