A restless spirit who can't reach his goal, can't find a home until I've found my soul. - The Kinks, Still Searching

Downtown Jacksonville could be a really fun place. The sad thing is....it's dead there. Everyone leaves Friday after work to party outside the city. The landing exists and I'll bet when they first opened it, it was something special.....now.....not much. They have events there and I hear then it gets packed, but other than that, nothing. It's a beautiful area.

I randomly read up on it on Urban Jacksonville's blog. I would love to get more involved and connected to the city. I love downtowns that have older looks to them and are renovated to be hopping areas. I think that's why I love fort worth. Well, there is a co-op bike shop in towntown, Zombie Bikes. I have their link on the right. I've been thinking of going to check them out and maybe learning about biking and building bikes. I have a few friends that are into that and I know Jim and Kristi are very involved in their bike community in the Dallas area. It seems that bikers really want to conserve the city's charm and uniqueness and keep things fresh. I'll have to check them out in the new year.

I'm kind of disappointed in myself. I have this hard time with thinking of all these things I want to be involved in, but because I can't decide, I just don't do anything I plan on! Well, that's going to change in 2010! It's a downfall of being a gemini.
"They are changeable and sometimes noncommittal. In this way, Gemini exemplifies the Mutable Quality assigned to it. They are adaptable and able to tackle multiple tasks simultaneously, and they know how to reason with people, but they may lack follow-through or seem ungrateful. Within the Zodiac, Gemini is opposite Sagittarius, the Sign of Philosophy. While Sagittarius tends to have one major interest that is studied deeply, Gemini people tend to have many different interests they study in less detail. They love to learn, and are analytical and versatile, but their study may be more superficial than in-depth."

That's where I falter. I know a little bit about a lot of things. In a way, it's good. I can carry on conversations with many different types of people. I don't become a master at anything. I get interested. Learn about it and then move on. If I could focus my energy, that would be great.

Okay, I'm going to go play my star wars wii game. :)

Its all in the choices that you have to make, I got to tell you, you better make them great. - INXS, Faith In Each Other

I feel like I am having to play my mom... "Candi, you have to pick two". She had to say that when I was young and wanted to be in gymnastics, soccer, softball, swim team all at once. I can't help it. I want to do it all! I'm a gemini. :)

These are the things I'm having to choose from now: scuba, flying, guitar, rugby, learning spanish, golf... I want to do everything. Starting in January I'm going to choose two. I really want to learn how to fly, but it's a lot of money and I'm afraid I won't do much of it after I got my license. I could go on to instruct and that way keep up my hours, but I don't know. Scuba would be fun because I have more friends I could go with and there is a diving club on base that I could join and go on weekend trips every now and then. Both of those cost a bunch. Guitar lessons would be pretty easy....especially if I can convince my dad to give me his old guitar. ;) eh eh? daddy? haha. He never plays it. I think the last time he ever took it out of the case was when I was about 5 and I thought it was a game to put the pick inside the guitar. haha. He didn't think that was funny. Maybe that's why he won't give it to me.

Anywho, I just have too many interests and want to do too many things, but they all cost. Maybe scuba and guitar, then flying. Urg. I don't know. I can't decide! I don't want to keep putting off flying because I know I just won't ever do it if I keep moving it back. I will do it though! Some point I will!

Candi. You have to choose two.

To wake up with a smile without a doubt, to burst grin giggle bliss skip jump sing and shout. Let's get happy. - The Cure, Doing The Unstuck

Man, I'm happy. Just naturally, spiritually, energetically happy.

-Christy and I booked our cruise for April!

Port Canaveral, Florida



19-Apr Cruising



20-Apr Labadee, Haiti



21-Apr Ocho Rios, Jamaica



22-Apr George Town, Grand Cayman



23-Apr Cruising



25-Apr Port Canaveral, Florida

I've never been on a cruise and neither has my sis, so we're thrilled. A week away from everything! Not only that....everything is brought to US! They even have a rock climbing wall on the ship. It's perfect for someone so stir crazy. I'll get spoiled though and wish that the navy's ships had rock climbing walls. :)


-Meeting more friends here in Jax.
Last night we had the nurses holiday party and I met a few other J.O.'s and I'm really excited about that! The thing that makes me pleased with myself is that when I moved to DC and wanted to meet people I just felt more alone and depressed. Now that I've been on my own a while, alone time is great and I just tell myself to calm down and relax, because friends will come. I just gotta take the time to get out in different avenues in the city and spread my wings.

I'm trying out a new church tomorrow. I've found some I'm interested in, but they either don't have a large young adult group, or whatever. We'll see how this one is.

-Christmastime!
Man, I love this time of year! Even though it's not snowing (everywhere except Florida apparently haha) and it's not super cold, you can still get in the spirit. Right now, I'm laying on the couch with my little Christmas tree lit, Christmas music going, and my holiday scented candles filling my apt with an amazing aroma.

-My job
I can't explain enough how much happier I am here in the ICU at Jax than in the APU at NNMC. I love the people I work with and they're so knowledgeable. I'm learning a lot so far...it's been a long time since I've done some really good nursing. The patient load is so low that I have time to really take good care of my patients. They're also going to start redoing our ICU next summer and apparently wanting to expand it to a real ICU (not just the open bay 6 bed unit we have now. hehe).

-The Navy
Nuff said. I'm a dork. I love the Navy. So happy to be in a Navy town.

-Going to start flight school soon
Just gotta order my ground school online stuff. I'm kinda waiting to get all my Christmas shopping done first. Hopefully, I'll start getting up in a plane by March or so.



I watch the news channels and I see how difficult it is for so many others. I've looked at hands on jax, which is a volunteer organization. I need to go up there in person and start volunteering around town. I just feel so lucky that all of these difficult things that are happening to others aren't happening to me. God has been amazing and He's continually blessing me. I just have to pass it on to others.